I don't know what it's like with your dream and feeling that can't be expressed in words, dps, but I do know that I have times when I have a flashback without words, just raw emotion. I feel small, afraid and needing someone to help me but there is no one. It's horrible. I don't yet have much in the way of memory to go with it though.
(((dps))) I hope you find the light, the sound of happiness, the still point of the turning world.

Bluegrey