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Hi Tucson. Guilt and a sense of failure are two of the most powerful, corrosive emotions I know. One of our wiser members often advises people to get off the guilt train, because it always comes back to the same place. And it so does-- guilt and regret, regret and guilt. Just remember, regret wastes life. Reflection enhances it. You can't reflect on the past until you forgive yourself. Remember that the things you feel guilty about were caused by your illness, and it is your illness that causes you to feel guilty about them.
As your sig line states, "You have to accept your own MI and everything that it entails before you can expect others to be able to do the same." You also have to accept your own MI and everything it entails before you can hope to learn to control it, rather than having it control you. So be gentle with yourself, my friend. Forgive yourself. Own your past and then let it go. And know that there are many people, here and elsewhere, who have been through what you're going through, and who know how difficult it is. And who know that it is possible to let go of the guilt, and that the reward is totally worth the effort.
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Dx Bipolar II 2014 -- currently in remission
Stay calm, be kind, have hope, love lots, and be well.
"Listen to the deep voice of your soul. Do not be distracted by the voice of your mind." -- Caitlin Matthews[/B][/COLOR][/SIZE]
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