I must grieve this loss, his support, his voice guiding me, sigh.......
but a new relationship is developing and I dont know what it will look like.
He called me at 3:30 am the other night, he is in Nepal and probably forgot the
time difference. I couldn't/wouldn't answer his call at time of night. So I sent
him an email asking for him to contact me this weekend at a specific time.
Dont know if this will happen. All I know is after his call, I couldn't go back to sleep
and felt my mind on him constantly for a day or so. It awakened the feelings of
abandonment, and my need for him. I long to see him/talk with him online.
Feel like I'm on a seasaw, trying to grieve the old T, and at the same time trying
to accept this new unknown connection.