It has to just be me though...if everyone went through this, I don't imagine most would continue having sex. It's not just a lack of orgasms, it's the fact that I don't often enjoy what's going on as much...it seems exciting beforehand, but once we're in the act, I often feel disappointed. Physically, I either don't feel anything or I feel like I'm hitting a wall. And I feel worse and worse about it the more I read because most people are having great sex and I feel subhuman. I already feel terrible about myself because of school/lack of career prospects etc. I really don't need something else I can't do right. If only I had the heart (or lack thereof) to fake it so he could at least feel good about it.

We even thought we'd found my g-spot, but the next time we tried it was well...gone. That was the first time I truly felt something. Then my stupid body had to get my period a couple days early and I had to wait 6 days before I could convince him to try to touch me again and it wasn't in the same spot anymore. And that was still a bit of a stretch as that part of me is clearly gross for 7 straight days. Although, my period is finally over, but I still feel gross.