I had a busy day. It was exceptionally mild for late October and the morning was sunny, it felt more like August. I decided to plant up some bulbs for the spring. While I was doing this, I realised that I expect and fully believe that I'll be around to see them. After so many thoughts of sui, that was a real, unexpected "UP". I'm still low, but I'm at least trying to make plans for the future, even if it is only to have a nice yard next spring.