One of my problems, always, when trying to continue going to therapy is I worry about the money aspect of it... I guess I have this inherent distrust of medical professionals when it comes to money, because I think a lot of doctors will prolong medical visits or overprescribe medication for the monetary benefits...
I know this should not apply to therapists... but really when you think about it, many of them make good money! It's hard to trust that someone is really trying to help you get better when their income relies on your dependence on them...
With my insurance covering certain therapists, it's not so very expensive for me to go, but it's still a burden on an unemployed college grad.
I believe people who provide a service should be paid fairly. I also believe that it may be tempting to draw out that service for longer than is necessary... and with therapy, who can draw the line? It's not like a broken bone, which will heal and then require care and strengthened muscles to support it...
I just wonder, if I can't trust a therapist to tell me when to stop therapy, who can I trust? Clearly my own judgement hasn't done too well as I've been stuck in a rut since about a month after stopping therapy this last time...
Also, I tend to cry in therapy a lot. I think this is actually a habitual thing, because it often happens when I'm embarrassed or even at the slightest trigger of a bad thought. I think that a good therapist might have tried to adjust this behavior so we could get to the real emotions and thoughts beneath the tears. Neither of my former therapists ever suggested doing such a thing. I think I told both of them about this phenomenon, but they attributed it to real sadness, as opposed to being a hindrance.
When I cry in therapy it feels like a waste of time, and if they didn't want me to stop crying, isn't that proof that my therapists were trying to elongate the number of sessions we had together? If I cried all through one session, then clearly I'd have to come back the next week, whereas if we actually used the time to solve problems, maybe I'd heal something!