((((((( Julia ))))))))

I had difficulty with that as well...holding myself to another standard. T and I actually got testy about that because he insinuated that I held myself to a higher standard... Ticked me right off.

Anyhow, I don't know how you'll allow yourself what you allow for others, but you're right. You need to. I learned to but it was VERY difficult.

I learned to by slowly doing and then recognizing that people respected and cared for me anyhow. I had learned one way, so had to re-learn this new way.

I'm now able to cut myself a break. I couldn't before because I guess, bottom line is...love was always conditional for me and if I didn't maintain, I wouldn't be loved. I couldn't cut myself those breaks because I was afraid I wouldn't be able to maintain as I had. Well, I was right but got a blessing from it. I wasn't able to maintain like I had, true. However, I maintained better in other ways which ppl respected as much or more. It evened out.

Most importantly I learned that those that truly cared, continued to and their care meant more to me and was something I could trust in...finally.

I hope that makes sense.

KD