hello. new here. I usually keep my binge eating pretty much under control. Although since the beginning of June it has been erroding. But i have managed to not let it get out of control. Today I broke all the rules that have kept me on the wagon, so to speak. I woke feeling very sad. Felt more sad as the day progressed.

I have worked hard to lose weight. Yoyo all my life. Although starving was not the way to do it. anyway, I no longer starve. But I have to be ultra careful to not go back to the binge eating.

Today I plunged into it full force. I feel horrible about what I did. The worst part of it was breaking the big rule about candy bars. I ate them. I have to be much more strict about the forbidden foods if I am going to keep from binging coming back as a pattern. I feel threatened and disgusted with myself for what I did today with the candy. And believe me, there was a lot more food than just candy. But the candy was a line I had not crossed since losing. Binge eating will always be a threat. And today I once again succumbed