I am so sorry this happened to you. It wasn't your fault. Not any of it. There is no reason you should have had to say stop, and no reason he should have put you in a situation in which you wanted to but couldn't.

Do they have a student health center at your college? They often have therapists. You may also want to look into the helplines (telephone and/or online) at RAINN (rainn.org). Don't let the term "sexual violence" scare you away, it is just one way of wording it. They should be able to help you out.

*((((((((HUG))))))))*