Hi there. Reading your post was like reading my own words. I feel exactly the same way. I need help right now. I don't have a good Psychiatrist or Therapist , I am on the wrong medications and I am abusing drugs to escape from all of the negative emotions that I feel inside. I feel "Stuck" and unable to make a move in the right direction to take some positive action in my life. I did however, go to one of my Group Therapy Sessions today; first time in over a month. I made myself go. I have been praying a lot for strength. I always want a quick fix to my feelings. It is overwhelming to think about starting all over again with another doctor, different Psych Meds, getting regulated and stop using drugs. But If I don't do these things, I know I am not going to get any better. I guess It's time to just bite the bullet and take action. The first thing I need to do is stop using drugs and find a new doctor. Being on this website has helped me because it shows me I'm not alone in how I feel. I wish the best for you and me too.