This week I let something slip, not fully aware initially that I had done it on purpose.
My therapist picked up on it straight away and told me he was confused by something I said, then repeated the phrase and asked why I chose today, now, to say it. That I could have kept it from him and he wondered why I said it, what I wanted.
BOY! I felt immediately under the spotlight, and realised that I wanted him to pay attention to this. I told him that I wanted to talk about it, at some stage. That in the past, maybe more than a year ago when I mentioned something related to it, he was dismissive and told me he wasn't really that worried about it.
He said that I must have felt like he had shut me down......which I agreed with and told him it is a huge issue for me even if he thought it wasn't at the time, it is. He apologised and began asking questions......and it all went downhill. I couldn't look at him for ages, drifted in and out, told him I couldn't talk about it now........finally he backed off.
Anyway........back to my question. Have you done that....let something slip on purpose? What happened then?
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