Perna & Mouse,

Yes I can understand both the conch and the telescope. But I have had a difficult time with the sort of "in between" phases, if you wlll. Perna, I never relly felt the sadness as sharp and sticky, it is more like a bomb or the soft sadness with no in between. When I was feeling like a bombing survivor a few months ago I finally went on anti-d's, I had been numb as anything and in a state of terror because of current triggers to old trauma. Now that I am feeling a little better, I am very much softened (I think due to the meds). However, i don't cry, I just feel sad. I'm looking for the middle ground in this spiral so I m not bouncing off the walls.....hmmmm