I started a diary thing for T to read in sessions and quite a few things "slipped" in there. I write in it really late at night, usually when my mind is going a hundred miles per hour and I don't remember what I put in it the next day, nor do I look over it before our sessions. I noticed that I do write exactly how I feel and am thinking, so I decided that it is best to not reread anything as I would change it completely. So one time I wrote about a serious topic that I have never even hinted to her about, and she jumped on it like it was wounded prey. That was three weeks ago and I still haven't been able to open up at all. I hope that I can start opening up this week. She has been very supportive through this, as always.