That's just another thing that confuses me so much. According to here, I always seem to be in a bad place.
When I treated myself off and on through my years, I was better mentally. I worked, I functioned, I was alive, albeit maybe not the highest social being in the world because being hi faluting socially takes greenbacks which are better spent on living expenses to me, as I've always been a low income earner.

The only positive I've seen out of treatment thus far, is I haven't done any self harm. That could probably change in an instant.

I don't know what my point is. I guess my situation/environment is not helping me any.