I find I can't really say the things I want to say. I try to tell t (have every intention of wanting to tell T), but then I freeze up and can't always say it. It also leads up to a whole bunch of doorknob disclosures. My panic rises the more time goes on in session and I don't say it, then it freaks me out that I am missing another opportunity to talk about what I need to. I also find I have similar problems right before T is going on vacation or right as I'm terminating with a t. I finally blurt things out because I really have wanted to talk about them for so long but I'm afraid I'm losing my chance...