sorry you have decided to leave but feel free to change your mind, im sorry you are feeling so rough at the moment, i myself have suffered with depression on and of for a while, mostly due to some of the things i dealt with as a child , but more receantly my own relationship problems and some things to do with two of my children, if you can learn to accept the offer of everyone here to listen to you and reply if they can you will find this a wonderful place to spend some of your time, either seeking help or offering some suport to others please feel free to pm anytime you want