well I cant answer the question you are asking because it isn't specific to what I feel. I don't remember my abuse by my brother. I just wanted to offer some advice on choosing a t. I spent years with a t that knew I had ptsd but ran away from treating it. my anxiety grew and grew and grew till I had a hard time functioning. I had to drop out of school. I finally quit seeing him and started with a t that specialized in trauma and childhood abuse. turns out I am DID, which my past t and pdoc even suspected but never addressed. I have come very far being treated correctly and my anxiety has been greatly reduced. many memories have surfaced. I don't feel any of it is my fault. make sure when picking a t that you choose on that specializes in trauma and abuse. I think this is so important. take care.