I brushed back tears, only once so far. Check up with pdoc is this month and see my t on Monday. I'm exhausted from all the shed tears. Every day, for several weeks. Life handed me a major disappointment. My support systems are adequate and kind and compassionate, but when depression lingers, ugh.
An ad helped when i was going through losing my mom and divorce, which were simultaneous. ..thinking on it. At least my dr leaves the choice to me...

Adding: the coercion by the court to drop the restraining order because he was keeping shared legal custody. ..dealing with my ex is depressing in and of itself and brought back the same feeling when the court wouldn't extend the first two. Because he's finished his anger management and because he's still bound to no abuse per order of his probation for the criminal assault case.
It's like, you know, he's still who he is. He's prone to violent outbursts, how can a slap on the wrist with anger management alone help? Where's the domestic violence courses, at least.
I'm really down on society. Granted being slowly relifted because of my support friends irl.

Then there's the whole aspect of just 'meh'....meh, meh, meh, meh, meh, meh, meh....

Cry Cry cry....