I seriously am enjoying this, being alone at home making music like I used to do all the time. I think I pushed so many people away on accident, they think I don't care. In actuality I don't care interacting with people I don't like it and find it tiresome and frustrating.

I don't know why this is, even if the relationship is good and I'm content with it. I just hate talking to people. It's annoying when people want your attention and me being a hermit many people think I hate and ignoring them. I just want to be left completely alone and isolated, at the same time enjoy some outdoors and be interactive too.

Mostly I choose to be alone, because it's where I'm most comfortable and uncomfortable at the same time.

Should I even care about contacting people? Should I even worry about this? I don't know many people don't talk to me either. I don't know what to do. I just feel my problem is that I give off the wrong vibe, but I don't know what's best for me in this situation. I'm very emotionally lonely and physically isolated than I've ever been in my life for the 2nd time for a long period of time.

Everyone is out doing something all the time, I'm either at worked, talking to myself, playing videogames or making music. It's like life is good with the simplicity and I hate how people ignore me. So I don't bother talking to them, it's like people who have no time to talk to me. At the same time I try to do it back, but it hasn't helped it makes it much worse.

So I don't know