Wondering if others have found their moods getting worse as you get older? I'm currently in a depressed episode that is the tail end of what I think was a mixed state or something. I have days I can't remember and this was the first episode I've had where I really believed I might not be able to keep myself from killing myself so i went inpatient for fear of myself. I am on my meds and everything, so now I'm scared that I'm screwed for life and I'm worried about being able to survive and about my kids who I still can't see right now because I'm so depressed. They are at my parent's house. I'm starting to think I can't take care of them anymore. It's horrible. I'm 35 and my mood problems started in my late teens. I was diagnosed at 23 or so but didn't start taking BP meds until last year.
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P&G (38) - Bipolar... Zoloft, Lamictal, Wellbutrin, Klonopin and Buspirone
Son (16) - Mood disorder NOS
Daughter (11) - so far so good
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