Hey Friend

When you first came to PC. You were angry ,pissed off , confused and felt lost. We have all been there and are often on the edge of an episode.

I honestly think your in a mixed episode and have been there since I met you on here , You can be mad , hateful and sad, depressed all at the same time. It's sucks beyond belief. Hell on earth.

I do think you have slipped through the cracks of mental health care in America. I doubt it will every be fixed ... but... You can advocate and advocate for yourself. Remember the squeeky wheel gets the oil.

You do have a right to request a different Pdoc , if there isn't one where you are going you can be sent to another facility /office.

I really wish you would push your GP to find what med is going to lower your BP , Just the constant increase in blood pressure is making Bipolar worse, yes it is. increase blood pressure keeps your adrenalin pumping.

I know all you want to do is feel good enough to have a job and a purpose, You can have that. You just need to keep pushing to get the best treatment that is going to be the best for you.