Hi Kori, and I seriously appreciate that you've tried listening to us. It's got to be so hard for you and I do "get" the pain.................and what you're reading/hearing just turns into "meaningless words" right??
But whatever..........I care!!!! And you know it probably feels like no-one cares, and no-one understands, but that's as much about you having so much to cope with.........and understandably so!!!
But please stick with us, please stick with the fight to move past this. You ARE worth so much more than what happened to you.
I know I don't "know" you, but no-one (NO abuser) EVER has the right to make ANYONE be feeling the way you're feeling. I know it's all too real for you now, but there can be a way ahead. So please, please, please give yourself a chance. There really is still help to be got, it might take time but...........

Alison