[COLOR="SandyBrown"]have to agree with bipolartist above. Unfortunately I too have heard this gets worse with age. I hope they are wrong, but I know I cannot worry about that because it will. I truly believe in self fulfilling prophecy. I have seen this several times. I do know one of my really bad times was years ago and I did attempt suicide by several methods at one time. It was bad and I hope I don't have that again. I think moods change and some are harder then others to work through. At that time it is good to reach out for those that can support you. If I leave you with anything, please let it be the notion to tell yourself that all moods will change and cycles do change. Be safe