I can totally relate-I too since a very young age have those manic up up days where I am wildly beautifully artistic with both painting & writing & at times I could win a gold medal in cleaning the house from top to bottom & meticulously organizing closets & drawers-then there are the crash days when to get of bed seems like climbing Mount Everest & heaven forbid I should have to brush my teeth or make toast. Finding the right combination of meds, therapy & support sometimes takes a lot of trial & error & I use a lot of complementary treatments like meditation, mindfulness & acupuncture but there are days when none of it seems to help-I'm finding this online community to be a very safe & supportive place to turn to as well. Take care & remember that you are not alone.