Update:

Today is day 9 since I left him. He wants to have a trail now. A week, to see if he's gotten better. I told him that he can fake it for a week, hell he could even fake it for a month. All he's done since I have left is read a book about abuse. He hasn't even had any therapy or gone to abuse group sessions. Just read 1 book.

He says that he's been working on his anger, that he has been putting himself in situations that normally make him angry so he can learn patience. I just don't feel like that fixes everything.

I don't believe him when he says he's changed, and I feel guilty for just wanting to break up for good. I'm so exhausted from the same things. I don't trust him and it hurts me to even say that i'm afraid of him. Even though he claims that he would never do anything to hurt me - how can I believe that after what he's done? I've been with him for 6 years and i'm just done. Does this make me a bad person? I don't know what to do anymore.