I made a mistake today.

A few weeks ago, a family from church asked me if I would want to go down to Penn State today for a football game to watch their 3 year old daughter if/when she didn't want to sit in the stands. I love this family and the girl, plus they were paying me $100 for the day, so I said yes...and I wish I hadn't.

Being in a college football stadium and watching the game made me extremely stressed and anxious. All I could think about was an ex boyfriend who played college football, and was sexually abusive to me. The last time I was in a college stadium was when I was with him and watching him practice.

It was so bad that I was so overwhelmed I almost started crying multiple times, and texted my T as well. And to make matters worse, once when I was out, taking the girl to the bathroom, I had a guy come up to me and touch me and say "hey girl."

Needless to say, especially since I have been up since 5:30 this morning, I'm not doing too well, and I'm not planning on going back to another college football game ever -- good thing I don't even like football!!