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Old Nov 02, 2014, 12:55 AM
WantToGrow WantToGrow is offline
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Does anyone else have ultra-sensitivity? I have had some blow-outs and lost friendships, and the last time was fairly recently, where I ended the friendship, and in hindsight realize maybe I over-reacted. I have had trouble keeping friendships and have had those kinds of blow-ups several times in my adult life.

Yesterday a rain storm was coming so my husband asked me to pick up the tools and things that needed to get put away (because, gee, they never make it back where they belong to begin with). Well, I thought I had gotten the important stuff put away. So, this morning, my husband said "I thought you said you put the tools away - they're all over the yard!" Well, I got so angry internally, took off to put the tools away, and basically had a melt-down, feeling like I was a total piece of **** that I can't even do a simple thing like that, let alone anything else to justify my existence...blah blah blah. I just spiraled down and down, and my husband found me in the garage angrily breaking down boxes, crying hysterically. He apologized, realizing he was being mean, and that he forgets how sensitive I am.

I hate being that way! I've got years of self-loathing built up from being lousy at cleaning and cooking and earning my keep in the home and financially...I dont have kids to justify not working...just ongoing low self-esteem.

Does anyone else have that problem of extreme reactions like this? It happened when the friendship ended recently, just fell to pieces in an extreme way, a recurring theme for me.