I don't think I've ever accidentally let something slip. Everything I say is very controlled, even in therapy. Once though, T had asked me whether I was sui very close to the end of a session. It's been something I've wanted to bring up forever but couldn't find the nerve to, so I said "yes, I am" because I didn't think I would ever have the guts to another time.
Another thing is, I realise I can be pretty manipulative and intentionally "drop" hints to make T pay more attention to me.
It's such a petty trick but I crave for her attention so much that I frequently leave potential disclosures half-hanging such that she scoot forwards and get that "concerned-therapist-frown".
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Originally Posted by ThisWayOut
I find I can't really say the things I want to say. I try to tell t (have every intention of wanting to tell T), but then I freeze up and can't always say it. My panic rises the more time goes on in session and I don't say it, then it freaks me out that I am missing another opportunity to talk about what I need to. I also find I have similar problems right before T is going on vacation or right as I'm terminating with a t. I finally blurt things out because I really have wanted to talk about them for so long but I'm afraid I'm losing my chance...
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Yes I can totally relate to this. I go into a session bursting with something I want to disclose but the chance never arises for me to do so. T either has an agenda/plan for the day or I simply feel too awkward to bring it up. It's exceedingly annoying and I wish I had more balls to actually say what I want to instead of stewing
after the session ends.