I'm sorry, Pfrog

I really do appreciate what you've all been trying to do for me. It's been helpful reading your responses.

I've just been having a hard time. This time of year is always hard for me.
I have a hard time accepting the support of others. I just don't feel like I deserve it and then I wonder why I ever asked and it makes me feel so horrible.

I feel horrible now, I know you all are trying to help me, and I appreciate it so very much. I'm just not the best at accepting support, I guess.