Hi Felix, firstly well done on graduating college and getting your degree!!!! You've certainly come a long way!!!!
But I can see you've been through a lot too, losing your mom and your grandfather must have been really tough for you, I'm sorry
But you know with everything that's gone on for you...........I'd say it's understandable that you're finding things hard.
Some stress/pressure on yourself in achieving the degree, your bereavements, thinking (or not thinking??) about the future now you have your degree............
Obviously we can't diagnose but maybe a mix of everything going on........??? And maybe you're right to be thinking depression and anxiety because they can sometimes be closely linked together.............and with everything you've gone through.
Do you feel like you could talk to your doctor about what's going on for you?? Then hopefully they could support you on the route to take e.g. referral to a pdoc, or counseling??
And you know we're here to offer you support too.

Alison