I don't think that anyone can every fully accept themselves after being abused, but seeing a therapist can help you come to terms with what happened and learn to like yourself again.
I was in a similar situation. I was molested repeatedly for about 2 years. I learned to bury the memories and pretend that I was fine, but they always were right under the surface waiting to come out. I coped by using drugs, alcohol and self harm. I was full of self hate. I attempted suicide. On the surface I was a successful person, but underneath I was screaming.
Finally I sought out help. I am not "cured" nor will I ever be, but I am beginning to learn to live with the memories and not letting them destroy me.
The key to therapy is finding a therapist you trust. You may have to try several before you find one that you feel completely comfortable with. My therapist is the only person in the world that knows what I am going through. I trust him and can reach out to him anytime - even at 1am when I'm on the floor in the middle of a flashback.
Don't get discouraged if you don't find the perfect one the first try. Keep looking! Good luck!
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