There are two guys, I love them both. I won't get into detail about the conflict, it would take forever to describe. So here goes the short version.
Two people have told me that they love me. That they can't live without me. Each day they think about me and can't concentrate on daily functions.
I've gone out with one of them but broke up with me twice because he thought I was a better match for the other guys- who in which case is his nephew. He seemed fine to let me go and I wasn't feeling any good about it. The next day though he was crying and regretting everything. I did have feelings for his nephew but never really thought of us being together. I have spent the majority of my time with both of them so they both know me very well.
Right now I'm being forced to make a decision on who I should be with. One of them is telling me that if I don't end up with him then its best if we cut all ties. That hurts me greatly because he is a big part of my life and the friendship that we had, he isnt willing to keep.
On the other hand the other guy seems to get into a depressed and pessimistic state. Calling himself trash and thinking his life is over. It hurts me to see that.
Both have really had an impact on my life but I can't decide and I can't make a positive decision yet. My time limit is coming close and I'm still stuck between them. They didn't seem to understand how difficult it is to make a decision.
One last thing. I read this quote that made sense to me I'm not sure if its something I should go by.
"If your in love with two men, then chose the second guy because if you really loved the first guy then you wouldn't have fallen for the second."
Sometimes I feel this is true but I can't help but think of them both as equals in my heart. I'm so confused and tired of cryig over this. Tired of hurting them. I just want an answer.
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