Hi NNR09,

I can totally relate with what your are feeling and going through. It is very unfortunate that you cannot get the medicine that you desperately need. I feel it is super important not only to take meds but to be on the proper ones. I have been a guinea pig for several years now and have taken a multitude of different medicine. Last year I was not properly medicated and lost it all - my job, my apartment, my sanity. I can thankfully now say that I have been properly medicated for the past year. But that is only one component. Therapy is such a pivotal part in the recovery process - unfortunately that is the part I am currently lacking. I go through the same emotions most of the time. I can tell you that taking it day by day does help. I find that trying to get a grasp of everything at the same time is very overwhelming. Make small goals for yourself everyday. Writing a list and checking off items seems to work. Breaking it down to little tasks as oppose to letting the mind race with thoughts of every single matter/problem is helpful. Keep on trucking girl, things will get better over time