Hi Purplepearl,

I can totally identify with what you experiencing. I had a very familiar situation happen. I am now separated from my husband (soon to be ex-husband - divorce has been filed but is taking a long time being finalized.) I too went through not feeling attracted to him and we were fighting a whole bunch. He was very unsympathetic to my feelings and what I was going through (at the time I was not officially diagnosed bipolar but was majorly depressed and full of anxiety.) He would also get mad because I wasn't getting things done. The more he nagged the more I sunk into deep depression. I also experienced several panic attacks due to his constant attacks. I fell out of love and realized the only way to help myself was to leave my marriage. It was doing more harm than good. Now I am not suggesting you do the same as I am not in your shoes. Only you know in your heart of hearts what to do. Yet I can say that it is not healthy for your well being having him react the way he is. I also totally understand you not feeling attractive - lack of sex/intimacy can have a huge damper on one's self esteem. I gained a bunch of weight at one point (after we separated though) and this was a huge blow for me. I felt unattractive and unwanted. Again, only you can decide what is best for you. I wish you all the best and can tell you are not alone.