Thanks, Sophie. You are right. I did start to spiral last night, and really nose-dived today. Now I'm going to watch a movie and sip hot chocolate. All day my gut has been twisted in knots with me feeling physically sick to my stomach. I'll take it easy tonight and tomorrow. My s/o and I are content here together.

Thanks, Christina. My s/o has lived his life irresponsibly on some fronts . . . like not worrying about final arrangements. This is why I stopped living with him. He's not always fair. But his kids can't expect me to answer for him. I will not try to talk further with his daughter at this time. Emotions are too high. Things will calm down.

The quality of his life, while he is here breathing is what I care about most. And I'm doing a pretty darn good job of making that the best it can be . . . if I do say so, myself. Like you say, Sophie, he's not dead. He's alive and physically comfortable and mentally content. Every day I think what I need to do to keep that going along okay, as long as I can . . . and get little breathers in for myself, so I stay sane.

Thanks, friends, for helping me through a difficult day. I think tomorrow is going to be a good day . . . one more day I have together with him.