I don't know what to do with the holiday season coming up....Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years...This is a time when everyone is "happy" and spending time with family and friends and celebrating. I'm not looking forward to any of it. In fact....it makes my depression and thoughts of suicide even worse for me. I don't want to hear people talk about how great their lives are. It's even worse when people ask me how my life is and what I'm up to because I have nothing to say and it turns out to be awkward. I don't want to be the person who with the depressing aura and make everyone feel uncomfortable or what not. I would rather just disappear.