I'm over cycling. I don't want to hear that give it time and you'll cycle back up. I'm tired of being on a rollercoaster. I'm tired of fighting my brain. I'm tired of being behind a mask because I feel I have to be normal. I'm tired of having to take meds. I'm tired of having to see a Pdoc and a therapist. I'm tired of having to call into work because I'm ill. I'm tired of having to go to work. I'm tired of being broken.
I don't know if I'll tell my new therapist everything. I have to build up trust first. And I really don't want her to send me inpatient. I'm rambling and it could go on for hours. I'll probably post more later.