I think it might feel corny to care about yourself; to acknowledge that you want to care about yourself and actually do it, because it's unnatural. It's something that you haven't done before and to do so would bring attention to yourself.
I never went to the gym or ate well growing up because that's just how my family was. Personally, I always wanted to be active, but it would have been out of place. When I became an adult, it took years to venture into a gym, even though I wanted to. It was embarrassing to discuss weight or choosing a healthy food because it was healthy.
But once I pushed past the initial awkwardness of doing something that felt totally out of place, and I got past the self-consciousness and feeling like a fraud, I was glad I did it. I'm not as healthy as I should be, and I still feel self-conscious going to a new gym, but I will do it, and I read nutrition labels and try out healthy recipes...
Try setting small goals for yourself...maybe noting which parts of self care (for lack of a better term) make you feel 'corny' and then pick something small that pushes your comfort zone a bit and go from there.
For me, it was allowing myself to walk into a gym and get membership information (don't allow them to talk you into a membership!! Check prices and contracts before signing anything!)
Specifically requesting vegetables be placed on the grocery list when I lived with roommates was another big one for me. Opting for a hamburger instead of a cheeseburger.
It kind of went from there to being avidly interested into eating well, exercising and sleeping enough.
Frankly, you should care about yourself BECAUSE no one else is guaranteed to. But you're gonna wake up with yourself for the rest of your life. So you might as well be able to trust, rely on, and like yourself. Not an easy reason, but a concrete one.
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