I left him a message. Told him that I needed to check in; to engage myself a bit. Joked about breaking the '10 PM boundary'-- said I knew it was the only way he'd get me to call. Asked him to leave me a voicemail tomorrow-- told him that I didn't want to talk to him; that I would explain on Friday-- that a message would be good enough.

I don't want to talk with him because I feel like it's pointless right now-- that I will talk with him for a few minutes, and then the disconnect will start all over again. I want to keep a safe distance to protect myself from the attachment. A message will do. I just want a message.

I want to make sure all this still exists.
I am not sure how I feel right now.