I appreciate all of the feedback that I'm getting from you all. Really, I do. Thank you so much. It's great to actually be able to talk about it, as opposed to just holding it in.
No, I am not equipped for this. In fact, I cut today, again. I can't handle all of this emotional stress, and I just want things to be easy. I think I love him; I really do. And we are still best friends. Just seeing him with another girl kills me. And it drives me crazy when he sends mixed signals, because I don't know what to do. I don't know what he wants. I know he likes me, too, because my other friend (another one of his close friends) has talked to him about it. I don't see how someone can like someone and NOT want a relationship? My other friend keeps me pretty updated, because he says he doesn't want me to get my heart broken. I think it's a little too late for that, because I feel miserable and confused...