I think my husband is going to cheat on me. I think he already has in his heart. He has been so cold to me lately and today he was "stuck in traffic" for a strange amount of time . I was so resolved earlier that he is going to cheat, I was ready to pack up my kids and leave. If I bring it up to him, he will just be condescding and tell me I am delusional. I know I'm not... It makes me furious and sad. I am so flipping insane. I know I'm now being cold to him but rightfully so. Earlier he asked me if I was mad and I wryly said no. Then he told me I had the best poker face he'd ever seen. I'm afraid of what this will do to my happy family. Am I a ridiculous person?
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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