Angelina,
I completely understand how you are feeling. I have been seeing my T for a year now and I still can't share details of my abuse. When I try to speak no words will come out of my mouth. I was very frustrated after a session because I couldn't say what I wanted to and I felt like not being able to say it outloud was holding back my recovery. So I wrote it down and mailed it to my T. Just dropping it into the mailbox was a freeing experience. Good luck!