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I left him a message. Told him that I needed to check in; to engage myself a bit. Joked about breaking the '10 PM boundary'-- said I knew it was the only way he'd get me to call. Asked him to leave me a voicemail tomorrow-- told him that I didn't want to talk to him; that I would explain on Friday-- that a message would be good enough.

I don't want to talk with him because I feel like it's pointless right now-- that I will talk with him for a few minutes, and then the disconnect will start all over again. I want to keep a safe distance to protect myself from the attachment. A message will do. I just want a message.

I want to make sure all this still exists.
I am not sure how I feel right now.

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You know...if he leaves you a message... you will be able to listen to it when you need to for comfort. Would that comfort you to have your own special message from him. Might that help you with the connect or the disconnect?

And yes I understand that this was a compromise of sorts.... but that YOU DID IT. I am dancing a happy dance for you Pink but know that you are possibly feeling unsettled.

Don't you feel like you have just about made a touchtown in your work with your T. I am proud of you and hope that you will allow yourself a glimmer (at minimum) of being proud of yourself.

YAY Pink.