A place to start might be 411 to find out phone numbers in your area of potential places of help. Just tell them everything you've said here and ask for agency's that might be able to help. I don't know where in CA you live but there should be a warm line or hotline for those in crisis and you are in crisis so don't be afraid to call and ask for help.
Best of care to you
And welcome to PC, there is a lot of support here.