Hi NotGood. Your situation sounds so stressful and frightening. Please don't think of that "one option" scenario. Somehow you're going to get through this. I think in CA, there are a lot of services that may be available to you. Have you looked into state agencies for insurance, monetary assistance, etc? Have you looked for any type of counseling for low cost or no cost? I'm sure there must be such things, it's just a matter of finding out how to access them. Meanwhile, please know you are not alone here. Everyone here is struggling with individual challenges we all have in common. So we really can understand and empathize with what you're going through.

I'm so sorry you're under this terrible amount of stress. It's time for you to take some time and investigate the services I'm sure must be available to you locally. Others will chime in and may be able to help with specific suggestions. But it's wonderful you've taken this first step and been able to post here. That's what this is all about, a supportive caring place where you can vent, share ideas and suggestions, and no longer be so alone. Hugs. I hope before too long you'll change your name, as you begin to solve the issues you are confronted with.

I'm sorry I can't be more specifically helpful. I think others will have better suggestions. Please take deep breaths and know that it's going to be all right.