...but I need to post this. For around the past half hour I've been working up the courage to phone one of the people in the string group I'm in at school to check when the next rehearsal is...I felt scared enough then, but I got some bad news - he doesn't know when the rehearsal is either. So now I need to make another phone call to the person leading the group (already tried once, but got his answerphone...really didn't feel up to leaving a message ), and if there's not another rehearsal before the end of next week then I'll need to make even more. I'm the leader of the school ceilidh band, and it's up to me to organise the dates of rehearsals - I was really hoping to be able to do this when I saw them at either orchestra (which I now know isn't going to happen, because one of my exams cuts into it ) or the string group, although I knew I'd have to call at least one person. But now it looks like I might have to call all of them.

I know it's my fault for not putting enough effort into exposure therapy when it came to making phone calls and leaving messages, but I'm scared! And I can't even let my old therapist know, because he said to call him if I had problems, and calling people is the very thing I'm having a problem with at the moment.