Hi ice93, nice to meet you. I'm bipolar, but mainly just depressed. I just came out of a long, over two years, suicidal depression, thanks to new meds. I know how bad it can leave you feeling.

It is obvious from your story that you have suffered a lot in your short life. I can't imagine going through what you have. I'm an only child and don't know what it would feel like to lose a brother, but I have lost grandparents and my parents and it hurt like hell. I was very close to them all. I'm much older than you, 62, and see I've had an easy life compared to yours, but depression knows no boundaries. It can hit anyone, anytime and it can be deadly.

I hope you can get back in school and get that diploma and that it helps you find work. I've recently quit working because of the depression, myself.

Don't worry about your English, you did just fine. I would suggest that you break your posts into more paragraphs. Some of us have trouble reading long posts that don't have frequent breaks due to a problem with concentration.

Wishing you the best.