Hello, HighDemands. I'm sorry I didn't see this thread until now. I'm new to PsychCentral. I'm diagnosed Bipolar 1, but exploring some dissociation issues with my therapist. Especially something that makes me feel as if I'm possessed.

Bipolar or having a true Dissociative Identity Disorder, they are very similar in my opinion and even having bipolar disorder can bring on some dissociative thinking when relating to your manic-depressive/bad side versus your stable side.

I don't know the reasons you can't go to a doctor, but I think it is necessary. I used to go to a free mental health place and they even had early morning and evening hours! I hope you're doing well. Can you give us an update?