That's what I was hoping this post would do, find someone who understands.

Haha, I'm glad you understood what I was trying to say, I'm no good with words when I get upset.

He already knows exactly how I feel, and says he wants a family with me, but always throws up reasons for not trying. Money, need a new car, need to move, etc. I guess I'm scared I'm in another string along relationship and until we actually start trying I'm not really going to trust what he says, which he also knows. He says its a 'the proof is in the pudding' situation. He doesn't get upset or annoyed when I tell him how I feel, which is good. I'm just a really untrusting person, which he knows and understands.