This morning, T gave me a referral to another T, based on an issue that came up in session. I’m assuming the issue falls outside of her area of expertise. I feel devastated – half insecurity that T is trying to dump me (she didn’t mention not seeing her anymore, but still), and half disappointment that wonderful T doesn’t have all the answers. I was choking back tears for the last 10 minutes, and bawled on my way in to work. It really illuminated that I care a lot about T, and that I also feel really insecure and vulnerable in the relationship. Most of the time, I doubt that T truly cares about me at all (even though she does a lot of caring things), so being referred to additional help feels like rejection. Has this happened to anyone else?

I’m sure it will make good material for next session, if I can muster up the guts to talk about it.